When I first started in AA; I relapsed more times than I can count. After starting the program and getting a sponsor, I would attend meetings regularly, then a slip would happen, and I would go missing for days or weeks. Not returning my sponsors calls, I would invariably turn up head bowed,and take the walk of shame to retrieve another silver chip (24 hrs) to add to my collection. I was embarrassed to face my sponsor, so my modus operandi would be to show up at the last minute and duck into a seat as far away from him as possible. After the meeting he would finally corner me, or I would get the courage to approach him. He handled it the same way every time. He would ask how my research went. Meaning, I must have wanted to learn some more about how alcohol affects me. You know, like I had forgotten what it was like and needed to remind myself that it was not a good thing. Research. Yep, that’s exactly what it was. I was a good little scientist and my findings were always the same.
Which brings me to the title of this post. I would never have suspected that oscar winning actor Philip Seymour Hoffman, had been out doing research after 23 years sobriety. Why would I; I certainly don’t know him personally, and hell, I didn’t even know he was a recovering anything. But the tabloids are saying ( so it must be true) that he is openly speaking about going through a ten day rehab stint that included detox from pain medication. He admits in the last year that it got so bad he had begun snorting heroin; which would seem to be the area of research that convinced him he needed help. Obviously, substance abuse is not that rare of a thing in his circles, but getting help like this is. I can think of only a handful of celebrities, who have pulled off the preemptive rehab. One done without the knowledge of the paparazzi. I wish Mr. Hoffman continued success; and might just sit down and finally watch one of the many acclaimed movies he has been in that I haven’t seen in honor of his return to sobriety.